there is silence
[[nothingness]]
except the dim hum of the [[server room]]you can't make out your surroundings
it is as though a [[veil->awakening]] were pulled over your eyesthere is a dim hum of fans
you can feel that you are in a room filled with the guts of a great [[computer]], spilled across the floor
you cannot see it, but you [[know->intuition]] it is there all the same
there seems to be a [[mask]] affixed to your faceas you stand, your muscles twist, almost of their own accord. it feels as though your flesh writhes beneath your skin, tissues curling around one another like snakes
you stumble forward, before running into a shelf. you feel at its contents. it appears to be covered in wires and screens and other electronic components
you are unsure where you are, within which [[machine's->machine]] belly you have awoken
the last thing you remember was [[falling]]. everything else is hazyyou feel at the mask covering your eyes
it is metal, wrought into elegant loops and ridges that you trace with each fingertip. it covers just your eyes, leaving your mouth and nose unobstructed
if you [[take it off->unmasking?]], perhaps you could see
not a sixth sense
more of an intutition
you can feel the shape of the [[room->server room]] in your mindyou pry at the engraved metal mask
it refuses to move.
[[pull harder]]
[[leave it alone->server room]]as you pull, your face erupts with pain
it hurts as though you are trying to rip the skin off your face
[[keep pulling]]
[[leave it alone->server room]] the pain sears, sending tendrils of fire throughout your body
thick liquid drips from the edges of the mask
you dab some with your finger
[[taste]]
[[wipe away]]the sanguine taste of iron sours on your lips
[[i should stop pulling->server room]] you wipe at your face, smearing the liquid across your cheeks
it hurts too much to continue
[[i should stop pulling->server room]] the Churchlands were littered with machines
rooms and rooms of circuits and signals and electric veins crackling with energy. most were dead, left as a husk of an edifice to knowledge
the energy demand for these machines had been so great, the Church had decreased everybody's rations. water became scarce, as it was in high demand as coolant
dozens of artificial intelligences consumed the resources of hundreds of thousands of people
then the [[Hunger]] began.you are unsure from how high you fell
or when you hit the ground
or who you were before the fall
but you were not Exorcised, because you seem to be [[alive->computer]]it was a knawing at the foundation of the Church
the people grew angry, and rose up in protest. they were swiftly crushed by the Exorcists
a [[thump]] resonates from outside of the room, snapping you back to the presentmore thumping
voices echo from outside of the room
you can feel them approach, three, maybe four bodies
[[hide]]
[[run]]
[[stay]]you crouch behind a rack of computer parts
the door opens
it is not the Exorcists
vaguely, you sense three [[technicians->hide2]] enter the roomyou fumble blindly around the room
you find the back wall, and feel for a handle
there
[[open it]]the door opens
it is not the Exorcists
vaguely, you sense three technicians enter the room
"ah, it seems she has awoken" says one technician
[["who are you?"]]
[["where am i?"]]
you struggle with the handle for a second until it twists, then slip out the door
[[what now?]]its hard to tell, but your intuition tells you that you are in a hallway
there seem to be two paths
[[go left]]
[[go right]]the technicians enter the room.
the silence is pregnant.
"GUARDS!" screams one technician.
[[run]]you creep down the hallway, one hand brushing against the wall as an anchor
a door swings open
"there she is, there she is!" shouts a voice
in seconds you are grasped by rough hands, and handcuffs are slapped onto your wrists
[[shit]]you race down the hallway, only to find another door
you open it, and are blasted with blistering hot air
sunlight falls on your skin for the first time since waking
it [[burns]]
you run out of the building, into the arid landscape of the Churchlands
your muscles begin rippling once again, and a searing [[pain]] writhes in your backone man laughs.
"who are we? we made you."
that doesn't feel true. "wait," you say, "i have parents, a family. i just can't... remember."
"come with us," the man orders
you bristle. "at least answer my questions first, please."
the door opens again, and six or seven guards rush in.
they restrain you, slapping cuffs onto your hands
[[shit]]
one man laughs.
"where are you? that's classified." the man says. "come with us," he orders.
you bristle. "at least answer my questions first, please."
the door opens again, and six or seven guards rush in.
they restrain you, slapping cuffs onto your hands
[[shit]]you are seized by the guards, tackled to the floor
your head smacks against the ground
falling
you are falling
a single hand raised to grasp nothing
[[unconsciousness takes you->unconscious]]the sun in the Churchlands is so hot it blisters, melting your skin
the ozone layer was stripped by the emissions of the machines, the naked body of the earth exposed to the fury of the sky
your muscles begin rippling once again, and a searing [[pain]] writhes in your backthe muscles of your back slither and strain against your skin
it is a pain nearly undescribable
once the pain reaches its apex, the skin rips open, and three sets of wings unfold
blood runs down your back
somewhere behind you, you sense the [[guards]] approach"patient 1 is escaping!" one guard shouts
you have to escape
[[run->run2]]
[[try to fly]]you run, but the guards are faster
they overtake you, knock you to the ground, kick you until you stop struggling
you are cuffed and dragged back into the building
[[shit->shit2]]you beat your newly molted [[wings]]
blood splatters across the ground
the guards are sprinting towards you
you need to fly [[now]]it is strange, to flex a new muscle
a truly novel sensation
maybe that's what you needed to [[escape->try to fly]]you beat your wings again, more frantically this time
its not working
the guards are getting closer
[[take a deep breath]]you imagine the sparrow
the rhythm of its flight
the sureness
it is beautiful
[[become the sparrow]]you get a running start
and imaging the spirals of air beneath your wings
the oscillation of your wingbeats
it is math in motion
poetry in equations
you were always good at that
back when you were more than "patient 1"
when you were [[ophania]]as your wings beat, you begin to take off
you remember your name
your face
it is beautiful
[[return to start->awakening]]you are seized by the guards, tackled to the earth
your head smacks against the ground
falling
you are falling
a single hand raised to grasp nothing
[[unconsciousness takes you->unconscious2]]nothing
then, awareness
not sight
you are strapped to a table, wings crudely pinned behind your back
lab equipment, machines, pages of notes
there is [[someone else->someone2]] in the roomnothing
then, awareness
not sight
you are strapped to a table
lab equipment, machines, pages of notes
there is [[someone else->someone]] in the room"you must have questions," a gravelly voice says
[["what do you want?"]]
[["what did you do to me?"]]
[["do you know who i was?"]]
"i remember now. i can see through your [[lies.]]""you must have questions," a gravelly voice says
[["what do you want?"]]
[["what did you do to me?"]]
[["do you know who i was?"]]"i made you better. stronger." the voice said. "you have an important role to play."
"what the FUCK DID YOU DO TO ME?" you shout. you are sick of the half truths
your anger is palpable. it fills the air with thick syrup, through which all motion seems to slow
you sense a tingling on your skin. you are on fire, yet you do not burn
the room begins to shake, objects seized by your fury. they begin to float in the air, and circle around you
the voice speaks again. "well done. we need your anger. your rage."
"you made me into a monster," you growl
"i saved you. you nearly died during the fall. you can get your revenge on the people who took everything from you. who took your [[memory,]] your life. join us. bring order to the Churchlands. we can destroy the devils that tried to ruin you."
"tell me what i need to do." you say
"all you need to do..." the voice begins. suddenly, a needle jabs your neck, and you slip into nothingness. "we made you a weapon. its time to get your [[venegance.]]""you were a devout Churchwoman. the terrorists bombed your congregation. they killed your family, threw you off a cliff. i found you, saved you. i alone cared for you. i gave you the power to make them [[hurt->someone]] like they did to you""what do i want?" the voice chuckled
"the same thing we all want. peace. stability. of course, we all make sacrifices for it. some more than most
surely you [[understand->someone]]"something about the story feels wrong.
you can't remember what
but who are you to [[doubt?->"what did you do to me?"]]it comes to you in a flash
the Excorcists, breaking down your door
slaughtering your family.
you remember stepping into the void, nothing left to live for. your broken body striking the floor
"you killed them. you took everything from me," you spat.
the voice laughed. "no, i gave you everything. i freed you."
now it is your turn to laugh. "i'm going to take everything from you."
[[seize true venegance->true venegance]]darkness
you are moving
carried in some sort of vehicle
[[emptiness]] takes you againwhat happened next was blurry
you were shown an encampment
you were told the terrorists who destroyed your family hid there
you were given the power to destroy them. the power to get justice. closure.
[[make them pay]]
[[let them live]]anger bubbles
boils
rises beyond its lid, spilling over
fire rages around you, the very earth ripped up, spun into a cocoon around you
finally, you release the rage with a great blast of energy
the earth falls back to the ground as a great ball of fire arcs toward the encampment
you hear screams, alarms. the crying of a child
fire rips through the tents, incinerating eveyone within. their deaths are quick. merciful, even.
a mushroom cloud of smoke rises from the crater
you feel nothing. nothing at all.
[[return to start->awakening]]"i won't do it," you say. "that camp is full of innocent people. no venegance is worth that atrocity."
the voice laughs. "wrong answer."
you are struck in the back, knocking the wind out of your lungs
you crumple to the ground. a blade is held to your throat.
"ready patient 2," the voice says. "goodbye, my angel."
the blade slices through your throat
your [[death]] is quick. merciful, even.death is like falling
you stood at that edge
and stepped into the void
[[return to start->awakening]]you swirl with fire, the room whipped into a tornado of agony
the voice shouts for guards. moments later they burst into the room
you blaze with light, before imploding, sucked into a tiny point
you collapse, sundering your very atoms
the blast vaporizes you instantly. it scours the lab, vaporizes the great machine with atomic fury.
[[closure.]]you are falling
your wings spread wide, catch the air
you slow your plummet to a stop, hovering in the air
below you, your family calls faintly
above you, the pearly gates swing wide
[[fly to the gates]]
[[let gravity take you]]you fold your wings, let the air claim you
your family whispers love as you strike the ground
it is beautiful
[[return to start->awakening]] you beat your wings, spiral upwards towards the great gates
just as you reach them, they swing closed
you grasp at the bars of the gate, then fall to your knees
the cycle of violence unfolds before you
you dissolve into ashes, carried by the breeze. it would be beautiful.
but it isn't. it's only tragic
[[return to start->awakening]]